Anxiety. The word that is so common in today’s society. Something I had no clue what felt like till my sophomore year of college. It was like something came over me one day, literally I remember never having “anxiety” and then one day I’m feeling like I’m going to vomit for no God damn reason, my mind is going a million miles a minute, and this thing called insomnia that I’m just now discovering has been a regular in my life.
Overwhelmed with trying to get straight A’s, have my life together at the age of 19, maintain a social life, and a relationship & also find time to work and afford this college lifestyle that I was trying to live. I remember going to the doctor because people told me maybe I should get something to help with my panic attacks. So, I start on anti-depressants and anxiety medicine “when needed”. To be honest all I needed was a hug and to be told that this is just life and being an adult. Instead of learning how to handle what life throws at you, I was handed a bottle being told if I take one a day my life is going to get so much better. All these balances in my brain that were off were going to magically get better and I was going to be happy again! So of course, I try them because the doctor says so. Months go by and I’m not getting any better but finding myself relying on these stupid little pills in my purse. More anxiety than ever before, so they tell me well maybe this kind isn’t working for you, let’s try this kind. So here I am trying another kind, same thing again, nothing new. I finally started to research all natural ways and just kept finding myself reading about marijuana and the effects of THC and CBD and how much smoking marijuana helps all these different people. I tried smoking in high school and hated it, so I was very skeptical to try it again. But I did and what do you know, it helped me so much instantly. I slowly went off my anti-depressants and switched over to CBD oils and it was completely life changing.
I was myself again, I learned how to have a calmer mindset, I was more relaxed and wasn’t putting harmful things into my body anymore. I don’t know why marijuana has such a bad reputation. It’s medicine to so many people. It betters millions of people’s lives everyday ranging in all ages. I’m so happy to see the legalization happening in more and more states. I used to be afraid to announce this to everyone but I think it’s okay for me to express who I am and how I overcame pharmaceuticals and anxiety. Many people think if you start smoking you are going to be lazy, eat all day, and be a “stoner”. And what so many people don’t realize is that those medications that I was given by a professional doctor were doing that to me. I was like a blank canvas every day, but not one you could draw on. It’s almost as if you talked to me, it literally went right through me. I was a walking zombie that was just trying to get through this thing we call life. Once I started smoking, I felt alive again. I was happy, I had so much energy, and most importantly I was positive. I finally felt as if I could get my life back on track and I honestly did just that. I went from a depressed college student, to hands down one of the happiest people. I have goals and I feel as if I can finally reach them. Anxiety and depression is no longer in the way, and boy is it an amazing feeling.
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Not everyone can relate and that’s okay. I’m just sharing what worked for me, and how everyone can have hope to help this mental disease that is becoming so common. Even if smoking isn’t your thing. Other things I have done to help with my anxiety have been spending a ton more time outdoors and alone. The peace you find while doing this can let good vibes flow into your body. Find a hobby that you love to do. For me, that was photography, and now it’s turned into a business for me! Exercise and eat healthy. It’s amazing how much more energy you will have throughout your day, which in return make you feel better and healthier. By doing this it has allowed me to be more productive throughout my days and feel less anxiety because I am getting more stuff done. No more not wanting to get out of bed! Spend more YOU time and you will soon feel a huge weight off your shoulders.
I am so thankful to live in a time where not only is marijuana a part of society but that it is becoming a positive part of society. People will always judge, but thats okay, let them judge you. Be YOU, and do what YOU need to do to be happy, all while be healthy and smoking this beautiful plant that was put on this earth.